Day 1 Update

I feel like a failure. I had a bad day. Went and bought a carton. :( I'm going to try again next week. Ugh.

I'm Quitting Smoking: Day 1

Day 1. I am so ancy. I keep reminding myself over and over why I am doing this.

The hubby and I quit before we started trying to get pregnant on July 25, 2010. We didn't start back until LB was 6 weeks old. I guess with all of the stress and lack of sleep, I just really wanted to smoke again. I now know that I can't "have just one" and be ok. I can't have any. At all. I need to quit forever. I want to be healthy for LB.

So today is the day. The hubby and I are quitting together again. We are not using the patch or anything. We re going cold turkey this time. I just want to get it out of my system, even though the next couple weeks will probably be hell. I can already feel the b*tch in me coming out. I hate it. I wish it wasn't so hard. I have a terrible headache and I am restless and ancy. I hope I don't gain weight this time around.

Wish me luck!!

Half a Year?

I can not believe LB is 6 months old. Time sure is flying. I am amazed that it has been half a year since we first met our precious little boy. Here is a pic :)

He really is the happiest baby. He is always smiling and laughing. I love his laugh. It cracks me up! I love him so much more than words can express. I have decided to write a letter the day before he turns 3 months, 6 months, 9 months, and a year, and then every half year after that to him. I already posted the first one. Here is the second one. It pretty much sums up my experience these last 3 months.

Dear sweet boy,

            Tomorrow you will be 6 months old. Time has flown by so fast. I am so proud to be your mommy. You are so cute and just keep getting cuter and cuter every day. You had your 6 month check-up today. You were 15 lbs and 13 oz and you are 26 inches long. You have a big ole head too! We expect you to be very smart, haha.

            Since the last letter I wrote so much has happened. You are growing so fast, almost too fast. I'm trying so hard to treasure each moment, because before I know it you won't be little bitty anymore, and you may not enjoy cuddling as much. I look forward to all of our wonderful moments we will share together. You laugh all the time now, and think mommy and daddy are pretty silly. You are always smiling and people wonder if you ever cry. You do, but not much. You are such a good baby. I really have been blessed. You are rolling all over the place now. Front to back and left to right. You want to go so bad, and I think you will be crawling soon. You blow raspberries all the time and you love squealing and making noises. You started eating cereal. You did not like rice but you love oatmeal, and so far you have had avocado and butternut squash. Your daddy has been making the food himself. He is such a good daddy and he loves you so much.

            You started sleeping through the night, for the most part. You go to bed around 7 and wake up around 6. I love the schedule you are on, but you aren't much of a napper. Sometimes you nap ok. Last weekend it was just us at the house and we took really long naps together all weekend. You were such a good cuddler. It truly melts my heart when you curl into me and fall asleep. I sing to you a lot, and you love it. You just look up at me and smile. It is the sweetest thing. I usually sing "You Are My Sunshine" or the "twa la la" song my mom used to sing to me.

            Your daddy and I are so very proud of you. We show you off and beam with pride anytime we take you somewhere. You get a lot of attention, because you are so very cute and you have super chunky cheeks that everyone just wants to pinch. Your eyes are beautiful. They are crystal blue and you have such long eyelashes. You are perfect. I love you so much baby boy. You make my world complete and a much better place. I love you to the moon and back!!

                                                                        Love you,

                                                                                    Mommy

I am so in love. He truly is the best baby and a gift from God.