I have more to come but here are a couple photos from the party!! It was such a huge success and we had so many people that we love so much come and share his big day.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
10 Months
Well time continues to fly by. LB is now 10 months old. I can not believe he will be a year old in less than 2 months!! He is developing such a huge personality. He is so sweet and outgoing.
He now has 6 teeth! Let me tell you...this makes for a very cranky baby at times. He is so cute though and loves to bite down on food and chew with his new teeth.
Big exciting news!! He has started taking lots of steps!! I have a feeling he will be full on walking soon! He gets so excited when he walks. I think I'll post a video.
I hope that works! It is so exciting watching him grow. He is so smart and so funny. I really do believe he has a great sense of humor. He loves people and loves smiling really big and everyone and making them go crazy over him. :)
He now has 6 teeth! Let me tell you...this makes for a very cranky baby at times. He is so cute though and loves to bite down on food and chew with his new teeth.
Big exciting news!! He has started taking lots of steps!! I have a feeling he will be full on walking soon! He gets so excited when he walks. I think I'll post a video.
I hope that works! It is so exciting watching him grow. He is so smart and so funny. I really do believe he has a great sense of humor. He loves people and loves smiling really big and everyone and making them go crazy over him. :)
Saturday, May 19, 2012
9 months
LB turned 9 months old on the 15th. It has been so amazing watching him grow. I just love him so much!
I wrote his 9 month letter the day before he turned 9 months, as I have with the other letters. Here it is.
Dear Sweet Boy,
Tomorrow
you will be 9 months old. I just put you to bed, and you threw the biggest
tantrum ever!! I think you fought sleep for at least an hour. Lately you have
just not wanted to go to bed or sleep all night. I'm sure one of these days, probably
when you are reading this, I will be having to drag you out of bed.
9 months
old seems so crazy to me. It sounds so much older than 8 months. You are
getting really big. Tomorrow we find out just how much you have grown. I can't
wait to see. You have learned so much since the last letter I wrote you. You
started crawling, you learned how to sit, you started pulling up on things, and
you are cruising now. You have taken a step too. You want to walk so bad. I'm
sure it will happen very soon. You are so jealous of your cousin Finn and all
of the walking he does. I have a feeling you two will be best friends one day.
We had our
first Mother's Day yesterday. You got me a sweet card. Thank you! I'm so
blessed and lucky to be your mom. You are just the sweetest and cutest baby in
the world. Everyone else seems to agree too. They just can not get enough of
you. You have chubby cheeks and fat thighs, and you still have the most
amazing, blue, sparkly eyes. Your smile is one in a million. You are very ticklish
and love it when mommy and daddy tickle you. You just scream and laugh. Your
laugh is just too cute. You have said mama, but only when you are fussing. It
is really precious though and makes me smile. You love to talk and scream.
You are
seriously wearing your daddy and I out. You are just so curious about
everything. You want to go everywhere in the house non-stop, and you usually
want to go to the places we don't want you in, haha. It really is amazing
watching you explore and learn. You get the biggest and most curious eyes when
you see something new.
You are
just in love with our cat Terk. Every time she comes around you get the biggest
smile and crawl very fast towards her. You pull her tail and fur, and her paws
and ears, and well…she doesn't exactly like it. She loves you though. She
always stays close by you, even if you drive her crazy. It is so sweet watching
you two.
You are
getting so heavy!!! Also, you have become a major turd during diaper changes.
You constantly want to turn over and sit up and move around. We have to give
you a toy to play with so that we can distract you or it is nearly impossible
to change you, haha. You are constantly on the go!
You are
growing so fast, and it is bittersweet. I love watching you grow, but it seems
to go too fast. I love cuddling you and rocking you to sleep, and I know before
you know it, you won't want that anymore. I love you so much, and being your
mom is my greatest accomplishment in life. You and your daddy make me the
happiest girl in the world.
Love,
Mommy
Here is a sweet picture of us last week!
Here he is at his 9 month check-up. He was 18 lbs and 27 3/4 inches!!
I am truly blessed. There are definitely days that are hard. Especially the days where I am by myself and hubby is at work. I manage though, and his sweet smile makes each task easier. It is hard on my body but it is all worth it. I love being his mommy!!
Friday, May 11, 2012
Before I Was A Mom
I saw this posted on my mommy blog board:
"Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.... Thank God He blessed me to be a mom with my wonderful precious child."
"Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.... Thank God He blessed me to be a mom with my wonderful precious child."
I am so proud to be a mom. It is the most wonderful experience in the world.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Teeth! 1st Step!
I can't believe I forgot to mention LB has his 2 bottom teeth now. They are too cute! He has been teething forever so I am so glad they finally popped through! Also, LB took his first step last night!! Unbelievable! He just turned around, let go and took a step. Then he took a nose dive. HA. I love him so much!!!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
8 months
LB is 8 months old now. He started doing so many things, literally, overnight. He started pulling up and standing, he perfected crawling, and is sitting up. One day while I was at work my husband texted me a picture of LB standing in his crib. It was amazing!! We lowered the crib immediately!!
That is the picture he sent. He looks so proud of himself here! It cracks me up. It also makes me a little sad. My baby is growing so fast. I had a moment today. I was just watching him move all over the place, and started crying. Every day is just so precious. Time is flying. I want to hold on to each moment and just cherish it.
He got to meet a friend of our's new baby this weekend. She is a month old. These 3 babies are going to be friends for life. My husband and his 2 best friends all had babies within 10 months of each other. How awesome is that? I will leave you with a picture of these sweetest face in the whole wide world!! This is my new favorite picture at the moment!
Sunday, March 18, 2012
7 months
Little buddy is 7 months old now. Time is seriously flying by, and he is growing so fast. He is starting to give me kisses now, which is my new favorite thing. It makes my heart melt every single time. I love him so much. He is weighing in at 16 lbs 13.8 oz right now. He is only in the 25% right now, which is crazy to me cause he is such a little chunker if you ask me. :) He is starting to wake up so I'm going to have to cut this short and continue it another day, but I will leave you with a few St. Patrick's Day pictures!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Day 1 Update
I feel like a failure. I had a bad day. Went and bought a carton. :( I'm going to try again next week. Ugh.
I'm Quitting Smoking: Day 1
Day 1. I am so ancy. I keep reminding myself over and over why I am doing this.
The hubby and I quit before we started trying to get pregnant on July 25, 2010. We didn't start back until LB was 6 weeks old. I guess with all of the stress and lack of sleep, I just really wanted to smoke again. I now know that I can't "have just one" and be ok. I can't have any. At all. I need to quit forever. I want to be healthy for LB.
So today is the day. The hubby and I are quitting together again. We are not using the patch or anything. We re going cold turkey this time. I just want to get it out of my system, even though the next couple weeks will probably be hell. I can already feel the b*tch in me coming out. I hate it. I wish it wasn't so hard. I have a terrible headache and I am restless and ancy. I hope I don't gain weight this time around.
Wish me luck!!
The hubby and I quit before we started trying to get pregnant on July 25, 2010. We didn't start back until LB was 6 weeks old. I guess with all of the stress and lack of sleep, I just really wanted to smoke again. I now know that I can't "have just one" and be ok. I can't have any. At all. I need to quit forever. I want to be healthy for LB.
So today is the day. The hubby and I are quitting together again. We are not using the patch or anything. We re going cold turkey this time. I just want to get it out of my system, even though the next couple weeks will probably be hell. I can already feel the b*tch in me coming out. I hate it. I wish it wasn't so hard. I have a terrible headache and I am restless and ancy. I hope I don't gain weight this time around.
Wish me luck!!
Friday, February 17, 2012
Half a Year?
I can not believe LB is 6 months old. Time sure is flying. I am amazed that it has been half a year since we first met our precious little boy. Here is a pic :)
He really is the happiest baby. He is always smiling and laughing. I love his laugh. It cracks me up! I love him so much more than words can express. I have decided to write a letter the day before he turns 3 months, 6 months, 9 months, and a year, and then every half year after that to him. I already posted the first one. Here is the second one. It pretty much sums up my experience these last 3 months.
Dear sweet boy,
Tomorrow you will be 6 months old. Time has flown by so fast. I am so proud to be your mommy. You are so cute and just keep getting cuter and cuter every day. You had your 6 month check-up today. You were 15 lbs and 13 oz and you are 26 inches long. You have a big ole head too! We expect you to be very smart, haha.
Since the last letter I wrote so much has happened. You are growing so fast, almost too fast. I'm trying so hard to treasure each moment, because before I know it you won't be little bitty anymore, and you may not enjoy cuddling as much. I look forward to all of our wonderful moments we will share together. You laugh all the time now, and think mommy and daddy are pretty silly. You are always smiling and people wonder if you ever cry. You do, but not much. You are such a good baby. I really have been blessed. You are rolling all over the place now. Front to back and left to right. You want to go so bad, and I think you will be crawling soon. You blow raspberries all the time and you love squealing and making noises. You started eating cereal. You did not like rice but you love oatmeal, and so far you have had avocado and butternut squash. Your daddy has been making the food himself. He is such a good daddy and he loves you so much.
You started sleeping through the night, for the most part. You go to bed around 7 and wake up around 6. I love the schedule you are on, but you aren't much of a napper. Sometimes you nap ok. Last weekend it was just us at the house and we took really long naps together all weekend. You were such a good cuddler. It truly melts my heart when you curl into me and fall asleep. I sing to you a lot, and you love it. You just look up at me and smile. It is the sweetest thing. I usually sing "You Are My Sunshine" or the "twa la la" song my mom used to sing to me.
Your daddy and I are so very proud of you. We show you off and beam with pride anytime we take you somewhere. You get a lot of attention, because you are so very cute and you have super chunky cheeks that everyone just wants to pinch. Your eyes are beautiful. They are crystal blue and you have such long eyelashes. You are perfect. I love you so much baby boy. You make my world complete and a much better place. I love you to the moon and back!!
Love you,
Mommy
I am so in love. He truly is the best baby and a gift from God.
Monday, January 16, 2012
LB is 5 Months Old!
Holy camoly where has time gone?? I really need to get better about updating this. It is 2012 now, and that means LB was born last year! This makes me a little sad. I really need to soak up every minute I have with LB because time sure does fly. I find myself thinking about the future a lot, like when he starts crawling, walking, running around. I really want to stop doing that though and just enjoy NOW. I know I will miss this time where he needs me for everything and needs me to carry him around. I love it and do not want to rush a single moment.
I gotta say I am really getting better at this being a mother thing. It is hard, but I am slowly getting better and better, and I love it. This is the most rewarding job. I am also very proud of myself for how I have adapted to everything with him. Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments. I especially hate when I'm out somewhere and need hubby to practically do everything because it is harder for me in different places. I have gotten much better at everything though. I also gotta say, as a very impatient person (I'm working on that) I am never impatient with LB. It is amazing how he just puts me in slow down mode.
I guess I owe it to him to be patient, since he is so very patient with me. It may take me 20 minutes to put on his pants, but he just sits there and watches me and smiles. He was truly sent from God just for me. I am so in love.
He rolled over back to belly for the first time a couple weeks ago. I was soooo excited! At 4 months we started him on cereal. He has had avocados a couple times and rice cereal but right now he prefers the oatmeal. I am still waiting to feed him the other stuff. I'd like to try to wait until 6 months but I'm just so excited I don't know if I can wait. We bought a baby bullet and plan to make his food. Hopefully I'll have the patience for that. I know it will be good for him.
I have a few New Year's resolutions.
1. Be a great mommy.
2. Be a great wife.
3. More patience.
4. Pay off bills.
5. Slow down and take it all in.
Number 5 is so important. I have so much to look forward to this year. I need to remember to just soak it all in. Life is good. I love my life.
I gotta say I am really getting better at this being a mother thing. It is hard, but I am slowly getting better and better, and I love it. This is the most rewarding job. I am also very proud of myself for how I have adapted to everything with him. Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments. I especially hate when I'm out somewhere and need hubby to practically do everything because it is harder for me in different places. I have gotten much better at everything though. I also gotta say, as a very impatient person (I'm working on that) I am never impatient with LB. It is amazing how he just puts me in slow down mode.
I guess I owe it to him to be patient, since he is so very patient with me. It may take me 20 minutes to put on his pants, but he just sits there and watches me and smiles. He was truly sent from God just for me. I am so in love.
He rolled over back to belly for the first time a couple weeks ago. I was soooo excited! At 4 months we started him on cereal. He has had avocados a couple times and rice cereal but right now he prefers the oatmeal. I am still waiting to feed him the other stuff. I'd like to try to wait until 6 months but I'm just so excited I don't know if I can wait. We bought a baby bullet and plan to make his food. Hopefully I'll have the patience for that. I know it will be good for him.
I have a few New Year's resolutions.
1. Be a great mommy.
2. Be a great wife.
3. More patience.
4. Pay off bills.
5. Slow down and take it all in.
Number 5 is so important. I have so much to look forward to this year. I need to remember to just soak it all in. Life is good. I love my life.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
So Much to Be Thankful For!
It has been a while! LB is 4 months and 1 week old! Time is flying. I am back at work now. It has been hard. I miss him so much when I am at work, and just can't wait to get home to his sweet smiles and laughs. He is growing so fast. At his 4 month check up he was 13 lbs 10 oz, 24 1/2 inches!
I am doing great. I have been working hard at losing the weight. I have lost 35 lbs so far. I also started weightwatchers and that is helping a lot. I still have a lot to lose. I lost all of the pregnancy weight but I still gotta lose that "I got married and got fat" weight.
LB slept through the night last night. 8:30-7! AWESOME!!! I was so excited. We just started feeding him rice cereal so I think that is helping. Also we dropped the swaddle too. I am so proud with how good he is doing. I do believe I have the best little boy in the whole wide world! :)
I am so looking forward to Christmas. We took LB to see Santa. He was so cute. Even though he will have no idea what's really going on I can't wait to give him his presents!
That's all for now. Merry Christmas!!
I am doing great. I have been working hard at losing the weight. I have lost 35 lbs so far. I also started weightwatchers and that is helping a lot. I still have a lot to lose. I lost all of the pregnancy weight but I still gotta lose that "I got married and got fat" weight.
LB slept through the night last night. 8:30-7! AWESOME!!! I was so excited. We just started feeding him rice cereal so I think that is helping. Also we dropped the swaddle too. I am so proud with how good he is doing. I do believe I have the best little boy in the whole wide world! :)
I am so looking forward to Christmas. We took LB to see Santa. He was so cute. Even though he will have no idea what's really going on I can't wait to give him his presents!
That's all for now. Merry Christmas!!
Monday, November 14, 2011
A Letter to my Baby
Dear sweet boy,
Tomorrow you will be 3 months olds. I can not believe how fast time flies. I am sitting here at home with you while daddy is at work. This is my last week home with you before I have to go back to work, and I am soaking up every second of it. You have been the sweetest, most precious baby. You have been so patient with me as I have learned to adapt to new things.
The first time I changed your diaper I was so nervous, but you just sat there so still and patient and watched me while I did it. When I changed your outfit, no matter how long it took or how uncomfortable it was for you, you sat there patiently the whole time. I am so grateful for such a sweet boy, and I am so sure this will carry on throughout your life.
I was unable to hold you when you were first born because I was sick and had to have medicine, but I remember the very moment you were born. It was 9:05pm and I heard the doctor's say, "wow look at all of that hair!" Then I heard your first cry. They brought me to you and you heard my voice and instantly looked at me. I was so overwhelmed with love for you, and always will be for the rest of my life. You daddy took such good care of you the next day when mommy was sick. He loves you so much and is such an amazing father. He took great care of me too. He was incredible for the both of us. When I was finally able to hold you my heart wanted to explode from all of the love I had for you.
I just could not believe you were my son. You were so perfect. You were absolutely sweet and the nurses just adored you. I loved your head full of hair. It was so cute and you still have that crazy head full of hair. It sticks up all over the place and people tell me all of the time how much they love it. It still blows my mind to think you are my son. How did I get so lucky? God truly gave me the greatest blessing when he sent me you.
I can't say that it hasn't been hard. My body hurts and I'm so tired all of the time. I have had to overcome some things I didn't think I would be able to do. You made things so much easier for me though, because you are such a wonderful baby. When I see your adorable smiles and hear you giggle, those 2am feedings don't seem so bad. My life is so much more wonderful with you in it!!
I want you to know that I will always love you. You will always be my baby. I will be here to support you in whatever you do. You and your father are the most important things in my life and I would do anything for the two of you. I will be there for you whenever you need me. You make me the happiest girl in the whole world. I am so proud to be your mother and always will be.
Love you forever,
mommy
Friday, November 4, 2011
Mommy Duties
So being a mom is hard. Really hard. I don't think I was ever prepared for just how hard it is. I keep looking forward to the day everyone tells me it gets easier, whenever that might be. My little one is almost 12 weeks...so hard to believe!! He is growing so much and gets cuter and cuter every day. He is smiling all of the time and has started trying to laugh. He has a blast on the kick and play piano mat we just got him, which is so much fun to watch. These are the things that make all of the hard work worth it.
Lack of sleep is the biggest obstacle. I have had a couple of full nights sleep thanks to grandparents and my wonderful hubby, but apparently I need more. Sometimes I just break down from so little sleep and I feel terrible for complaining and it makes me feel like a terrible mother. I know I'm a good mom though and I just have to remember that.
He is getting bigger and wigglier so some things are getting more difficult. Diaper changes...not too bad but getting harder. He is getting heavier. It is getting cold so we have to start putting him in winter clothes which means more snaps.
I do absolutely love being a mother though. It is the most rewarding thing I have ever done, and also the most difficult. Just because it is hard does not mean I don't love it. I feel extremely proud of myself for the things I have overcome so far. I love my little man so much. I really need to remember how fast time flies and soon I will miss this.
Lack of sleep is the biggest obstacle. I have had a couple of full nights sleep thanks to grandparents and my wonderful hubby, but apparently I need more. Sometimes I just break down from so little sleep and I feel terrible for complaining and it makes me feel like a terrible mother. I know I'm a good mom though and I just have to remember that.
He is getting bigger and wigglier so some things are getting more difficult. Diaper changes...not too bad but getting harder. He is getting heavier. It is getting cold so we have to start putting him in winter clothes which means more snaps.
I do absolutely love being a mother though. It is the most rewarding thing I have ever done, and also the most difficult. Just because it is hard does not mean I don't love it. I feel extremely proud of myself for the things I have overcome so far. I love my little man so much. I really need to remember how fast time flies and soon I will miss this.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Almost 2 Months!
LB will be 2 months next Saturday. I can't believe how fast time is flying. I figured I would finally update since all I have put recently is a couple of tickers. The last 2 months have been the most difficult and also the most rewarding months of my life.
Hubby finally went back to work a couple weeks ago, so 3 days a week it has just been me and little buddy. Those days are hard, I'm not gunna lie. I think they would be hard for anyone. It is so nice to have someone to share the responsibilities with. The days he works I do everything, including the every night shift. LB has been going through good and bad times at night. Sometimes he will have 5 hour stretches and sometimes they will only be 2 hours. Those are hard. I have never been "fun" on lack of sleep, so these last couple of months have been challenging to say the least. Oh my gosh I miss sleep so much! It is all sooooo worth it though!!
I finally figured out the car seat issue. I can get it in and out of the car now. We had to create an adjustment to help, and it works. Today the hubby is working and I am taking him out by myself for this first time. I'm nervous but it needs to be done. I hope it is easy and works out ok.
My emotions have still been crazy. Post-partum hormones are serious. Lack of sleep does not help either. Sometimes I really beat myself up. I have good days and bad. When I'm here by myself and LB gets upset and I can't calm him like hubby does, it really throws me off and I get really upset. Hubby can walk around with him and pat his butt and I can't do that. Yes I have calmed him plenty of times but sometimes I think negatively. Luckily I have a great hubby that reminds me of all the things I have done and can do. I really need to work on my confidence and stop beating myself up.
He has started smiling here and there, and that melts my heart so much!! He is absolutely precious and I am so in love. He is getting so big and has already grown out of some of his clothes which makes me excited but sad too at how fast its going. This week is our anniversary and my birthday is the week after so next weekend we are letting him stay a couple nights at his grandparent's house. I am so nervous and I am going to miss him like crazy!!
Despite my crazy emotions at times I truly am so happy and feel so blessed. I have a wonderful family of 3 now and I could not be more happy. I look forward to so much!
Hubby finally went back to work a couple weeks ago, so 3 days a week it has just been me and little buddy. Those days are hard, I'm not gunna lie. I think they would be hard for anyone. It is so nice to have someone to share the responsibilities with. The days he works I do everything, including the every night shift. LB has been going through good and bad times at night. Sometimes he will have 5 hour stretches and sometimes they will only be 2 hours. Those are hard. I have never been "fun" on lack of sleep, so these last couple of months have been challenging to say the least. Oh my gosh I miss sleep so much! It is all sooooo worth it though!!
I finally figured out the car seat issue. I can get it in and out of the car now. We had to create an adjustment to help, and it works. Today the hubby is working and I am taking him out by myself for this first time. I'm nervous but it needs to be done. I hope it is easy and works out ok.
My emotions have still been crazy. Post-partum hormones are serious. Lack of sleep does not help either. Sometimes I really beat myself up. I have good days and bad. When I'm here by myself and LB gets upset and I can't calm him like hubby does, it really throws me off and I get really upset. Hubby can walk around with him and pat his butt and I can't do that. Yes I have calmed him plenty of times but sometimes I think negatively. Luckily I have a great hubby that reminds me of all the things I have done and can do. I really need to work on my confidence and stop beating myself up.
He has started smiling here and there, and that melts my heart so much!! He is absolutely precious and I am so in love. He is getting so big and has already grown out of some of his clothes which makes me excited but sad too at how fast its going. This week is our anniversary and my birthday is the week after so next weekend we are letting him stay a couple nights at his grandparent's house. I am so nervous and I am going to miss him like crazy!!
Despite my crazy emotions at times I truly am so happy and feel so blessed. I have a wonderful family of 3 now and I could not be more happy. I look forward to so much!
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
Little Buddy
For the sake of our privacy and with this being a public blog, I will call our baby Little Buddy, and abbreviate that to LB. That's what I have been calling him, and I'm sure it will stick, at least for me. So LB will be 4 weeks old on Monday. Time is flying already! He is so perfect and precious, and I am so so in love. He is just the best baby and hardy ever cries, at least for now. He did have a fussy time yesterday but unfortunately I think he may have a cold, and might even have some reflux.
So the last 4 weeks have been great. I love LB so much. I have had my ups and downs though. My hormones have been out of control. Things are pretty difficult with arthrogryposis, and mix in some crazy hormones and you get a hot mess. The first couple of weeks I pretty much let the hubby do everything. I was scared I would hurt him or wouldn't do something right. The only thing I was good at was hold him and singing to him and talking to him. I could tell he adored me, which made things a lot easier, but I was still depressed that I wasn't able or felt like I could do more.
I wanted to breastfeed so bad. That was my first set-back. It was too difficult to find a good position to hold him in, plus my milk never really came in very good. Then we went to formula and fed him with a bottle. Who knew holding a baby and a bottle and trying to burp him would be so hard. That has been the hardest thing for me, and feeding my baby is the most important thing! Can you imagine how my emotions have been? I have been having the hubby feed him most of the time. I have mastered diaper changes and even changing clothes, but the feeding...ahh. It is so hard. I just don't want to jostle him too much and I don't want to hurt him when I'm moving him around trying to burp him. The hubby says I do great but I just am not the most confident with that yet.
I still have things I have to learn that I haven't had to really deal with yet, like getting the carseat out of the car. I will get there. I am feeling more confident every day. I hope to master the feeding soon. It is tough though, but like I have done with everything else growing up, I will keep trying until I get it! My little one deserves it. He truly is great and so patient with me. I am so blessed.
So the last 4 weeks have been great. I love LB so much. I have had my ups and downs though. My hormones have been out of control. Things are pretty difficult with arthrogryposis, and mix in some crazy hormones and you get a hot mess. The first couple of weeks I pretty much let the hubby do everything. I was scared I would hurt him or wouldn't do something right. The only thing I was good at was hold him and singing to him and talking to him. I could tell he adored me, which made things a lot easier, but I was still depressed that I wasn't able or felt like I could do more.
I wanted to breastfeed so bad. That was my first set-back. It was too difficult to find a good position to hold him in, plus my milk never really came in very good. Then we went to formula and fed him with a bottle. Who knew holding a baby and a bottle and trying to burp him would be so hard. That has been the hardest thing for me, and feeding my baby is the most important thing! Can you imagine how my emotions have been? I have been having the hubby feed him most of the time. I have mastered diaper changes and even changing clothes, but the feeding...ahh. It is so hard. I just don't want to jostle him too much and I don't want to hurt him when I'm moving him around trying to burp him. The hubby says I do great but I just am not the most confident with that yet.
I still have things I have to learn that I haven't had to really deal with yet, like getting the carseat out of the car. I will get there. I am feeling more confident every day. I hope to master the feeding soon. It is tough though, but like I have done with everything else growing up, I will keep trying until I get it! My little one deserves it. He truly is great and so patient with me. I am so blessed.
Friday, August 26, 2011
August 15th, 2011, My Birth Story
August 15th, 2011, 9:05pm....the day and time my precious baby boy was born! He was a healthy 6 lbs and 13.5 ounces! He was 19 inches long. He was born 3 1/2 weeks early but was healthy and perfect! Mommy on the other hand had a rough time!
So it has been a crazy couple of weeks! I will start from the beginning. On that Monday morning, August 15th, I woke up around 2am with terrible pain in my upper abdomen. I was so miserable I was crying. I tried to distract myself and eat something but I was miserable. I called the doctor's office and they told me to come on in to get checked out. I figured it was probably me just not dealing with my body changes well and baby just growing more so I said I'd wait a couple of hours and see if it got better first. I did not want to waste a trip to Labor and Delivery. I did not think it was labor at all. Well a couple hours passed and I wasn't feeling better. I went ahead and called in from work. The phone rang and it was my husband's work letting him know that he could be off for the day if he wanted. I told him that it would probably be a good idea if he took off, so he accepted the day off. It was as if the day was planned perfectly for us. God was truly looking after us. I told him what was going on, called the doc again, and she said definitely come in. So we went to the hospital. We grabbed our packed hospital bag and the carseat, just in case, even though we both felt like it was not really necessary but would still be prepared.
We got to the hospital around 6am and was admitted to a room. I had blood drawn and was hooked up to monitors that listen to the baby. Now I am no nurse or medical expert so everything I'm about to tell you may make no sense. I just remember bits and pieces and don't really know how to explain it well. My blood pressure was high and I had some swelling. I was put on a 24 hour urine test. I had to have a gallbladder ultrasound. At first they were only going to admit me overnight, and then things started changing and happening fast. The tests came back (I had 2 sets done) and after the first set they decided I would definitely need to be induced. Then the OB doctor came in a told me that I had HELLP, and told me about it. Here's a link to understand it more: http://www.preeclampsia.org/health-information/hellp-syndrome . She checked my cervix and it looked like I would be very difficult to induce and that because of HELLP I would need to deliver quickly. I had the option of inducing or having a c-section. I opted for the c-section for the sake of my baby and my own health.
I was then admitted to labor and delivery to get anesthesia. I had to have a central line put in because I am such a difficult stick, and they would need easy access for the IV, blood tests, and any emergency medicine I might need. That was not fun...nope. I then had the epidural...not fun either but better. I could tell the symptoms were getting worse. I was swelling and my vision was blurring. Once I delivered I would have to be put on magnesium for 24 hrs. I went back for the c-section. This was the easiest part of the whole hospital stay. At 9:05pm, I heard them say, "Look at all of that hair!" and then I heard him cry. Then I cried. My baby was here. Finally. And he was perfect. They brought him over and he knew my voice and opened his eyes to me. It was the greatest moment of my life. I was instantly in love.
I was taken back to the room and put on the 24 hr magnesium. Being on that was probably one of the hardest things I have ever done. I don't remember much about August 16, 2011. I was so sick, and so miserable, but luckily I was getting better. God really looked out for us during that time. My arms were so swollen that I could not lift them. I could not hold my precious son. My husband would hold him against my chest and my son would look up at me with the sweetest eyes. It was a tough day but I was so lucky.
I finally reached 24 hrs and was able to go to post-pardom. I would have to stay until Friday morning. My blood pressure was checked regularly. It finally went down so that I could go home. It was the greatest feeling getting to leave that hospital and drive home as a family. :)
I have to say that I fell in love with my husband all over again. Not that I wasn't in love already, but after everything we went through together last week, and I didn't think it was possible, but I love him even more. He has been incredible. He was right there by my side the entire time and helped me so much. He is the most amazing man I have ever known. I am very blessed and grateful that God sent him to me to be my husband. Also family was amazing. Our parents were so very helpful during that week and we are so so thankful. I have so much to be thankful for.
So we have been home for one week as of today. I had planned on breastfeeding, but it turned out to be more difficult for me that I thought. First of all, I guess because I was so sick, my milk had a hard time coming in. Second, I had a very hard time trying to hold him right to get a good position for him to latch. I'm still trying to get used to holding the baby, feeding, and changing diapers and clothes. It is difficult, but hopefully I will get it. Luckily I gave birth to the sweetest most patient baby ever. He is so patient with me when I am changing him or snapping buttons. He loves when I hold him. I truly feel blessed and I am so in love. I have so much to look forward to!!! :)
So it has been a crazy couple of weeks! I will start from the beginning. On that Monday morning, August 15th, I woke up around 2am with terrible pain in my upper abdomen. I was so miserable I was crying. I tried to distract myself and eat something but I was miserable. I called the doctor's office and they told me to come on in to get checked out. I figured it was probably me just not dealing with my body changes well and baby just growing more so I said I'd wait a couple of hours and see if it got better first. I did not want to waste a trip to Labor and Delivery. I did not think it was labor at all. Well a couple hours passed and I wasn't feeling better. I went ahead and called in from work. The phone rang and it was my husband's work letting him know that he could be off for the day if he wanted. I told him that it would probably be a good idea if he took off, so he accepted the day off. It was as if the day was planned perfectly for us. God was truly looking after us. I told him what was going on, called the doc again, and she said definitely come in. So we went to the hospital. We grabbed our packed hospital bag and the carseat, just in case, even though we both felt like it was not really necessary but would still be prepared.
We got to the hospital around 6am and was admitted to a room. I had blood drawn and was hooked up to monitors that listen to the baby. Now I am no nurse or medical expert so everything I'm about to tell you may make no sense. I just remember bits and pieces and don't really know how to explain it well. My blood pressure was high and I had some swelling. I was put on a 24 hour urine test. I had to have a gallbladder ultrasound. At first they were only going to admit me overnight, and then things started changing and happening fast. The tests came back (I had 2 sets done) and after the first set they decided I would definitely need to be induced. Then the OB doctor came in a told me that I had HELLP, and told me about it. Here's a link to understand it more: http://www.preeclampsia.org/health-information/hellp-syndrome . She checked my cervix and it looked like I would be very difficult to induce and that because of HELLP I would need to deliver quickly. I had the option of inducing or having a c-section. I opted for the c-section for the sake of my baby and my own health.
I was then admitted to labor and delivery to get anesthesia. I had to have a central line put in because I am such a difficult stick, and they would need easy access for the IV, blood tests, and any emergency medicine I might need. That was not fun...nope. I then had the epidural...not fun either but better. I could tell the symptoms were getting worse. I was swelling and my vision was blurring. Once I delivered I would have to be put on magnesium for 24 hrs. I went back for the c-section. This was the easiest part of the whole hospital stay. At 9:05pm, I heard them say, "Look at all of that hair!" and then I heard him cry. Then I cried. My baby was here. Finally. And he was perfect. They brought him over and he knew my voice and opened his eyes to me. It was the greatest moment of my life. I was instantly in love.
I was taken back to the room and put on the 24 hr magnesium. Being on that was probably one of the hardest things I have ever done. I don't remember much about August 16, 2011. I was so sick, and so miserable, but luckily I was getting better. God really looked out for us during that time. My arms were so swollen that I could not lift them. I could not hold my precious son. My husband would hold him against my chest and my son would look up at me with the sweetest eyes. It was a tough day but I was so lucky.
I finally reached 24 hrs and was able to go to post-pardom. I would have to stay until Friday morning. My blood pressure was checked regularly. It finally went down so that I could go home. It was the greatest feeling getting to leave that hospital and drive home as a family. :)
I have to say that I fell in love with my husband all over again. Not that I wasn't in love already, but after everything we went through together last week, and I didn't think it was possible, but I love him even more. He has been incredible. He was right there by my side the entire time and helped me so much. He is the most amazing man I have ever known. I am very blessed and grateful that God sent him to me to be my husband. Also family was amazing. Our parents were so very helpful during that week and we are so so thankful. I have so much to be thankful for.
So we have been home for one week as of today. I had planned on breastfeeding, but it turned out to be more difficult for me that I thought. First of all, I guess because I was so sick, my milk had a hard time coming in. Second, I had a very hard time trying to hold him right to get a good position for him to latch. I'm still trying to get used to holding the baby, feeding, and changing diapers and clothes. It is difficult, but hopefully I will get it. Luckily I gave birth to the sweetest most patient baby ever. He is so patient with me when I am changing him or snapping buttons. He loves when I hold him. I truly feel blessed and I am so in love. I have so much to look forward to!!! :)
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