Saturday, February 26, 2011

Meltdowns and Migraines

Hello everyone. So, I'm 12 weeks, and finally seeing the light at the end of the first trimester tunnel. Things are looking up, and I have been getting my energy back. The morning sickness has faded quite a bit. Now, if I could just get rid of these dern migraines.

Thursday night it started. It had been a very long and busy week, and it was ending with a night of tornado warnings. Not only did I have a migraine but I couldn't sleep because of the storms. I was up for work at 4:15am because I was tired of just laying in bed. I felt miserable. I made it to work only to find out I had left my entry badge in the building the day before. I had to wait for someone to get there and let me in. Not a great start. My migraine was working on me hard, and finally I had to just go home. I left a couple hours early and went home. I slept for about 4 hours, only to wake up and still have the migraine.

This may have triggered my meltdown. I have been pretty calm for the most part when I think about the baby and how I will be with him/her. Last night, everything seemed to hit me. I was asking my hubby for help cleaning something and then it just hit me. I am going to be a mom. Mom's are supposed to be able to do everything. That is what makes moms so very amazing. So I started bawling. The hubby was confused and I couldn't talk about it for a minute, but finally I opened up. My husband is so amazing. He helps me with so much. I told him how I was freaking out because there were things I may not be able to do and how I want to be wondermom and be able to do everything. I told him about how I am super nervous about being able to do everything for the baby. Well, he has a way of always making me feel better. He reminded me of the things that I can do, and how I have never ever quit at anything I have ever wanted to do. I really do have an amazing husband.

We have decided to get a fake baby and practice. I really didn't like this idea at first but I think it will help. I think it won't be easy, but I will find ways to do what I need for our baby. I am excited about the journey we have ahead of us.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

11 Weeks

There are no big changes this week, just a lot of extra heartburn. I have been popping my tums, which seem to help for a little while. I never really had heartburn before this and never really knew what it was. I just knew there were tons of commercials for it, so it apparently affected some. I now know how unfortunate those people that get it are. It hurts!

I have been so ancy for March 8th. I have many new questions for the doctor. Nothing too serious, I just want to make sure I am doing everything right. I find it very difficult to get the recommended nutrients when many of the foods that are great for me and baby make me sick at this time. Thank God for prenatal vitamins. I have always loved food. Right now, not so much. I am so ready to have an appetite again. I am also ready for my crazy sensitive smeller to calm down. Will it?

I am so ready to enjoy being pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I am ecstatic about being pregnant and am so grateful. My dad told me God gives us amnesia. By the end of the pregnancy and when I see my beautiful baby, I will have forgotten all about that terrible heartburn and morning sickness. I believe him too.

Until next time...

Saturday, February 12, 2011

To Know or Not to Know...

I am 10 weeks pregnant! I am ready to be 14 weeks pregnant, ha! I hear that the sickness starts to go away after the 1st trimester for most. I truly hope this is the case. The hardest part for me is the headaches. If it turns into a migraine, I'm screwed. Tylenol just doesn't cut it. I can deal with the nausea, but a bad migraine for me is killer. Other than that, things are great. My next appointment is March 8th. It's like waiting for a vacation. The weeks drag on because I am just so excited for each appointment. I want to know whats going on and how my baby is doing. The one after that will be even harder because I will find out the sex! Then I can start buying stuff.

So when my husband and I decided to start trying to get pregnant, we decided to do a pre-pregnancy checkup. We actually had two, because about a year or so ago we were going to start trying but I changed jobs, so we held off until we were settled. The first doctor we saw we ended up not liking quite as much as we would have liked. He was big on fertility and genetics, and was not very personable. I felt like the person that delivered my baby needed to be personable. That was important to me. Anyways, he felt that because of my disability, we should see a genetics specialist. Now, there is a part of me that would like to know whether or not my baby could possibly have arthrogryposis or any other disability. Really though, would that change anything? I'm not going to decide against having a baby just because there is a chance of that. Not knowing is better for me. Really it was the only option.  My husband and I both agreed on this. What difference would knowing make? None. My current doctor, who I love, mentioned genetics as well. We told her we were not interested. We also turned down the Chorionic Villus Sampling. Our doctor was very supportive of our decision.

So the hubby and I are just as excited as ever for this pregnancy. I am looking forward to maternity pants! It will be nice to have an excuse to wear pants that stretch.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

First post!

Hello everyone! Thanks for checking out my blog. This is my first post of hopefully many. I have tried this several times before and failed to keep it up. This time will hopefully be different. I wanted to create a blog specifically about my experience with pregnancy. This may seem like nothing special, but I am pregnant and have arthrogryposis. This may end up not being any different from any other pregnancy. We will see.

Before I even started trying, I searched the internet for information on pregnant women with arthrogryposis. I could hardly find anything. I want to do this so that maybe I can help someone like me one day understand a little more and know what to expect. This will also be a great way for me to just look back on the experiences (good and bad) of my pregnancy.

Currently I am 9 weeks pregnant. Morning sickness: check. Heartburn: check. Moodiness: check. Insert pregnancy symptom here: check. Whew, I give props to the moms out there. This is way harder than I ever imagined. It will all be worth it though. My husband and I are just over the moon excited. I had my first ultrasound and Dr's appointment last Friday. Everything looked great. Heartbeat was 172 which the doc said was a really good sign. Just a note: my doctor's name is Dr. Storck!! (pronounced stork) Oh yeah how cool is that. Anyways, the appointment went great...up until it was time to give endless amounts of blood for tests. Lets just say an hour and a half later I had several bruises from being stuck with no luck. I have tiny, invisible veins. I HATE giving blood. My next appointment is March 8th. I am sooo excited.

So...that's where we are today. I hope you enjoy. I am not much of a writer, so hopefully I won't bore you too much. Thanks for reading!!